From time to time, I'm going to post some of them. I can't guarantee the standard matches up to my work today but at one stage I was proud of them and, because of this, will run the risk of not rereading them before posting to avoid the inevitability of meticulously editing...
What I will say of this piece is that, two years on, it still remains one of my proudest pieces of writing. Hope you enjoy it.
My First Time
Recently I was asked about my first time. After spending
quite a while to think about this, trying to rumble my thoughts to think about
this…I realised that if I’m being honest, I could never forget my first time. Sharing
my experience with the world is only right. For privacy purposes, she will
remain anonymous.
The relationship that I’m about to divulge on isn’t the
regular kind in the sense of the way we got it on. A friend who had been
previously fucking with her had introduced me to her. Don’t judge me, he told
me she was the shit. I’m a fiend for the finer things so it was only right that
I got a slice of the pie. I could tell from the get-go that she was special;
the fellas in the neighbourhood had described her as enough to get ‘em high.
So it was she and myself in my bedroom and she just started
to do her thing. She even had the nerve to say these two words: ‘screw me’, as
if I was contemplating doing anything else. The way she started it up was nuts,
all I could do was breathe in, breathe out. I hadn’t even given her permission
to takeover me like this but she had already infiltrated my thoughts, my
movement; it felt almost as if we’d been familiar for forever and a lifetime.
The thing I loved about her, in fact love about her, is the intelligence she holds,
a prowess so evident in her spoken word. I have no reason to hesitate when I
state my assurance of how much this paid a large contribution as to why we
related physically and mentally.
After this first time, she knew she was already my addiction
and never let me down. I’d come home from school and she’d just be there in my
bedroom waiting for me ready to let me get real deep in her and I’d just drop
my bag on the floor, along with my school spirit and get things moving. I was
still living in my mother’s house and when things would get wild, my mother
would shout at us to keep the noise down but we don’t care, we just carried on
doing our thing, too deep in ecstasy to think about my family business.
When she would touch me, I could feel more than just the
touches. I felt as if I could understand every single layer of her, everything
from her deepest secrets to painful experiences of her life right down to the
heartbeat. She spoke in rhyme all the time like a Shakespearean play, she could
do it all day and I’m not talking about just rhyming there. It wasn’t always
fun and games, we went through the best of days where nobody on the planet
meant as much to me as she did and the days of rain when I started to wonder if
she could still balance on the heightened pedestal I had given her, such is the
competitive nature of the world. But one thing about her that no other could
ever replicate was her willingness to go through the wire; she was prepared to
risk everything just to be with me, for our relationship to continue.
I used to dread the day that it would all fall down, they
say nothing lasts forever but she is different. Our first time feels like our
last time, there’s never a lack of stimulation with her; she knows the right
slow jamz to drop to make me do our thing. Our last call, last night, feels
like every call, just right. I know everything she’s going to say; I can finish
her sentences for her. The bond we have is like no other and no matter how she
may change as the years go by, I know her core will always remain the same and
she’ll still be that bad-ass bitch.
This that I present to you is none other than my first time.
A time which has affected the way I’ve lived my life ever since. A time that
affects the way I start my day, finish my day, feel about my day. A time that
is already down as a highlight in my life… my first time with hip-hop.
Currently listening to: Kanye West - Slow Jamz feat. Jamie Foxx & Twista
P.S. Hope you picked up all the references, I counted at least eleven when I skimmed through...
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